My Opinion...and with no doctor references!

For years, I've periodically wondered what people actually think of me, what they say about me when I'm not there (friends say everyone just says how odd I am)...but, does it even matter any more? I feel like I'm offering a different* me, and I'm not sure how it's working out...

If you remember the stories of the Thieves oil I would use as a room incense...you know my friends tolerated me amazing well (there I go again, assuming everyone's tolerating me...hm. That's a bad mindset to have. argh. I shall squash that idea!!! *grinds heel into gravel* Wait, how exactly will that help, anyway? hehehe.) ANYWAY, cinnamon, cloves, lemon, rosemary, eucalyptus...basic ingredients ~ smells great! (Well, according to David, they smell like clove cigarettes...I just don't know where the cigarette smell comes from. Maybe clove cigarettes just smell like cloves? SO, this fine oil kills just about everything (tested at Weber State University in Ogden, Utah, and found to kill 99.96% of airborne bacteria...way cool, huh!**)

Which leads me to Dragon Time—a fine oil blend (made of fennel, jasmine, marjoram, lavender, clary sage and yarrow) Gary Young created for his wife, which balances hormones... and makes you smell like a licorice stick, but it's SO worth it! My ankles now smell like licorice, and I am no longer depressed. Seems like a fair trade off. My friends keep pledging their undying love, so no consequence more than wrinkled noses.

As I told my mom, it's like my base emotion has changed. Instead of being depressed, with moments of joy, sorrow, anger, etc., I now am (mostly) content with moments of joy, sorrow, anger, etc. And, I’m a whole lot less anxious now than in years. I guess my wish to be comfortable in my own skin has finally come true, and I'm glad. It's taken too long! Because, for about 10 years, I've sort of been in a scared bubble where I internalized almost everything. It's part of the reason I'm having such a hard time telling stories—I just don't have experience. I've been working on it, though. So, have patience with me, please. After all, everything is story.

I guess I hid*** it rather well, ‘cuz no one seems to recognize any difference. I guess my friends just always brought out the wacky/weird/odd/fun/hyper in me...but, seriously, didn't I ever seem melancholy?

*new, better, different...they're all such modernistic concepts...lol! can we ever escape?
**D. Gary Young, N.D., An Introduction to Young Living Essential Oils, p. 66.
***And I wasn't ever trying!

ah, love, my people :-D